Sunday, November 05, 2006
went to cube yday.the crowd was the usual people.
drank quite a bit.
more than usual.
din really enjoy myself so i proceeded to mos wid mia.
the music was better over there.
could not sleep due to some weird reasons.
so i went to packed my drawer.
"a drawer of secrets"
i just happened to read through all the letters.
it just my head spinned once again.
pharses like
"i will always love you"
"without you i am nothing"
"i'm always here for you"
sounded familiar?
when anyone is in love they always use pharses like these.
bt none of them actually fulfilled wad they said.
esp the pharse "always love you"
wad a bullshit.
will you still have the person even aft a break up?
does the word always have an expiry date?
it will expire when a couple breaks up.
to me.
always means forever and regardless what happened you will still love the person.
no one can fulfiled it.
since no one can, bt why do ppl still give the other party false hope by saying it.
dont ppl knw that it will affect the person's life.
someone said it to me once or twice.
to be exact, two people said it to me many times.
i believed it n live wid it.
somehow things did not turn out well.
bt i am still holding on to what was said.
it is nt that i still like the person or nt.
it is a promise given to me.
i guessed i shd use 'was' instead of 'is'.
it is the past.
bt it made me lose faith in relationships.
that's explain why i am still single and choose nt to like anyone.
i always tell ppl i treat everyone as frens.
the fact is i am scared to fall in love.
i hide it from the world.
and i hid it well.
i tried bt i had chickened out.
i refused to get into any kind of relationships.
the only person that did not failed me so far is none other than rachel mak.
she seriously stand by me through regardless wad suitation i/she was in.
i knw she will always love me.
i will always love her.
this is the promise both of us made to each other.
we did not say it out.
bt we knw it.
a silent promises mean the most.
(11/05/2006 10:41:00 AM)
