Sunday, February 19, 2006
something are just beyond our control.
i dunno wad is his will for me.
maybe i nv asked at all.
i always choose the life i wan to live.
nv even bother to ask him.
yes i believe in him.
but i nv truly have a relationship wid him.
he is always there wen i need him.
but somehow i always leave him out of my life.
i always ask myself why am i treating him like that.
he love me so much but yet i hurt him.
imgine someone you love alot hurt u.
the pain is so terrible.
but i nv care much abt that.
i just keep on hurting him.
i dare to say i know him just as much as others.
i learn abt him since young.
i know all his stories at the back of my head.
i once had a deep relationship wid him.
but i chose to leave it.
due to some worldly desire.
today made me realize that he actually waiting for me to go back to him.
another thing i realize today is love cant be force.
when it is time to let go, i must.
i dun wan to cause hurt and damage to someone i love by doing all sort of stuff to make the person stay by yr side.
i learn to take things easy.
i'm still learning.
it is just nt simple.
i will learn.
today.
got my hair cut. i love it!
had a big feast.
shop.
hi tea session.
chat.
saw some ppl.
that abt it.
(2/19/2006 08:10:00 PM)
