Tuesday, February 28, 2006
i am yours.
every part of me.
you are truly the reason i live.
take my life.
use it for your will.
i have nothing worth in my life.
you are the one i'm seraching for.
somehow something keep drawing me back to church.okay i go church every sunday. but if you know me well enough, i go church because i wan to entertain my mum.power praise service jus speak right thru my heart.i know who she is refering to. i know i'm the one. but somehow something is holding me back. i cant respond. maybe i chose i not to. i used to have a great relationship wid him. but i strayed away.i chose to. i chose the worldly desire over him. somehow he love me so much, he never leave me. he continue sending ppl to me.
this is wad he told me.
if you love me, you will obey me.
i cant serve two masters. i always say i love him. have i show it?
some soul searchin to be done.
i must admit he always helped me in terms of eveyrhting.
esp my studies.
most of the times wen i said i never studies for whatever test n stuff. it is true.
the results dun belong to me.
it belong to him.
he gave it to me.
i know i dun deserve it.
but somehow he still gave it to me.
it may seem unfair to the world because they dun understand.
it is not my own ability.
it is his.
i did nothing.
fathterly love to his daughter.
everytime i get in trouble, he was always there. nv failed to help me get out.
he is my father.
actions speak louder than words.
he is calling me back.
i can hear him calling my name.
all these while, he did not let go of my hand even when i pushed him away.
i rem my prayer wen i was sec 2 or something.
i told him dun let go of me even wen i chose to leave.
he did not until now.
i just cant comprehend his strong and unfailing love for me.
wen things goes wrong, he is nv in my list of ppl i want to turn to.
he is always the last resort i will turn to.
but you know wad.
he is standing there with open arms to welcome me back.
i'm sure he love me more than anyone.
i will get back to him.
i will tell the world how faithful you had been to me.
give me some time.
time is all i need.
(2/28/2006 10:10:00 AM)
