Saturday, November 19, 2005
today i jus got to know this gal..she told me her story..her story goes like that..
since young she is veri insecure..she is brought up by people around her telling her that she have no talent..she is stupid..when she was young, her cousin jus punch her because she is fat and ugly..she ran crying to her mum..all her mum said was this " you are jus being a sore loser" aunties all laughed at her because she cried..everyone dun treat the matter seriously..that when she realize that she cant depend on her parents..she had to depend on herself..during her psle..she did not do well..everyone was like saying " see i told you she is stupid"..all family events, she jus sat there alone and dun talk to anyone..she is pretty close to her dad's side ppl..but somehow she realize that they cant be trusted..her dad's side ppl all love her borther and her sister but none of them really care abt her..she grew up thinking that she is stupid she have no one to love her..so she grew up to be insecure..during her secondary school days..she thought her found someone she can trust..but again she is wrong..her so called trusted friend betrayed her time and time again..and it sort of get her sister in trouble because of the betrayal..they told her that she is stupid to believe ppl so easily..her dad and mum love her brother alot..they dun care abt her..they only give her money and that it..she went astray..she stole things even thou her parents gave her enough cash..during her sec2 year..her mum forced her to go express..but she supposely do badly..and yes everyone was saying that she cant make it..she is always trying so hard to prove to ppl that she have talent and she is capable..she jus tried too hard..when she had some results..her relatives told her that it is jus nothing in their eyes..her dad always think that is is the stupidest in the family..there is simply no love at home..so she seek love outside..she got into all kinds of relationship..due to her insecurity she end up uarrelling wid her stead more than spending happy moments together..once she found someone she love, she will hold on to the person..but her possessiveness somewhow shun her stead away..she is left all alone again..her relatives condemn her because of the relationship she get into..but no one is willing to find out the root of her behaviour..she learn to depend outside more than her relatives or even her parents..she got to know ppl that she tink can protect her..and until now she think it is true..she always get into trouble wid rules..somehow her mum wan her to turn back to the young lil gal like she use to be..but everything is jus too late..o point making amends when the hurts is there..there is no point being there for her when her mum wasn't there for her wen she needed her to protect her..she always cut herself and take sleeping pills..it is to remove her pain..who truly understand wad she goes true..as for her studies, she try hard to please ppl but not herself..she nv feel happie..never..wad is happiness? or should her said wad is true happiness she nv experience it..she is totally drained..but no one understand..everyone tot it is jus some mood swing thingy..counsellors and others are all useless..until now she know that she cant depend on anyone..because no one is willing to make her happie..or her insecuritness shun everyone away..
most important lesson learned is to depend on yrself and not anyone..trusting yrself is the only way to save yrself from all the unneccessary hurts..
(11/19/2005 08:28:00 AM)
